04 May Retracing Old Footsteps: Genie Milgrom
“Something in me has awoken. I can’t explain it but I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I’m Jewish. There are no Jews where I live [in New Mexico]. I was raised Catholic but in Catholic school they would say I didn’t look it. My parents put a huge Star of David with our Christmas lights. I need proof. I need your help. I’m begging you. Please point me in the right direction.”
Genie Milgrom receives hundreds of emails like this one every year. They pour in from Brazil to Bolivia, from Peru to Portugal. Milgrom, president of the Society of Crypto-Judaic Studies and the Jewish Genealogical Society of Greater Miami, responds to each message. She has traced her own unbroken maternal lineage back to a Jewish family in Fermoselle, Spain, that was forced to convert under the iron fist of the Inquisition but secretly maintained Jewish practices. (Jews who converted under threat are anousim, their descendants are Bnei Anousim; they are also called crypto-Jews or Conversos.) Born in Havana, Cuba, and raised Roman Catholic in Miami, Milgrom, 59, tracked her family roots to 1480 through Inquisition records and went on to document her findings in two books: My 15 Grandmothers and How I Found My 15 Grandmothers: A Step by Step Guide. An Orthodox Jew who converted when she was 35, she has made it her mission to help lead others “out of the ashes” of history, she said.
Descendents of anousim are emerging in greater numbers than ever before. Hungry to find out about their lost heritage, to reconnect to a religion that feels mysteriously like home or to revert wholeheartedly to Jewish identity and practice, they are reaching out to guides like Milgrom and to a handful of rabbis in the United States and abroad. Milgrom doesn’t doubt the veracity of their stories. “I don’t know why anyone would fake this,” she says. “It’s difficult to be Jewish.”
Doreen Carvajal, 58, is a Paris-based New York Times reporter whose memoir, The Forgetting River: A Modern Tale of Survival, Identity and the Inquisition (Riverhead), documents her journey from Costa Rica, where she was born, to Segovia, Spain. At the National Historical Archives in Madrid, Carvajal found transcripts of the 15th-century show trial between a family member who was a Converso bishop and Tomas de Torquemada, the first Spanish Grand Inquisitor. Dozens of witnesses and neighbors testified against the family for actions as banal as eating adafina, a slow-cooked stew (a Sefardic cholent).
“Now that I understand what happened, I treasure the perseverance of my ancestors to protect their beliefs,” Carvajal says. “When I face my own struggles, I think of what they achieved.” She is now seeking formal conversion.
“The Bnei Anousim…are a living, breathing phenomenon…men and women…who are eager to forge anew their links with the Jewish people,” says Michael Freund, founder and chairman of Shavei Israel a Jerusalem-based group that assists “lost Jews” to return to the Jewish people. “After so many centuries we have the opportunity and the moral, religious and historic responsibility to open the door for them.” Shavei Israel has emissaries in Spain and Portugal, and recently expanded its outreach to southern Italy and Sicily as well as to El Salvador, Chile and Colombia. Its Machon Miriam center in Jerusalem prepares hundreds of Bnei Anousim for conversion each year.
The potential for the Jewish community is staggering. No exact demographics exist, but scholarly estimates of Jews lost to Judaism during the Spanish and Portuguese Inquisitions, mostly through forced conversion, range from 200,000 to 800,000; their descendents number in the millions, says Rabbi Stephen A. Leon of Conservative congregation B’nai Zion in El Paso, Texas, which has become a magnet for Bnei Anousim all over the southwestern United States.
“The story of the crypto-Jews is still the biggest secret in the Jewish and general community,” says Leon. But it is beginning to go mainstream. Leon, whose grandparents were Ashkenazic but whose ancestry is Sefardic, spearheaded the opening of the Sephardic Anousim Cultural Resource Center in El Paso last summer. Organizations like Bechol Lashon and Kulanu, which advocate for Jewish diversity, have taken up the cause. Colombian-born Juan Mejía, a Conservative rabbi in Oklahoma City, and Brazilian-born Jacques Cukierkorn, a Reform rabbi in Overland Park, Kansas, who has established the first virtual Spanish synagogue, are also helping Bnei Anousim return, especially through Internet outreach.
Children of the Inquisition, a multimedia and documentary project in production, follows a group of Bnei Anousim on their quests and explores how forced conversions shaped history and convoluted identity. “This is a ‘relook’ at history that could only happen today,” says Children of the Inquisition director Joseph Lovett, a former director-producer for ABC’s 20/20.
The film includes interviews with Carlos DeMedeiros, 50, a Brazilian-born artist who lives in New Jersey. The hooks in Hanging Man, a crucifixion he crafted from two upside-down hangers, symbolize question marks and, DeMedeiros explains, his “fading away” from Christianity. His family, he says, was “very Christian but had a kosher tradition” that excluded shellfish; he even tried to ease his doubts about faith by entering a monastery for potential priests (he was rejected after nine months). When his mother reconnected with relatives who had documents proving that his 14th grandmother was a Converso who escaped from Portugal to Brazil, he found a sort of closure. “I’ve come full circle to something to which I belong,” he says. “It’s a work in progress. Never ever let the candle burn out.”
Three years ago, Rabbi Shalom Morris, educational director at Congregation Shearith Israel, New York’s 350-year-old Spanish & Portuguese Synagogue, started a Facebook page, coincidentally also called Children of the Inquiition, for people to share their experiences, explore their identities and ask questions about Judaism. “Our 23 founders were Conversos or Converso descendents,” explains Morris, who is Ashkenazic but whose great-great-grandfather (Rabbi Eliezer Silver) was active in relief efforts during World War II. “We have an historic imperative to assist the Bnei Anousim. I welcome them to the sanctuary and say to them, ‘People who were Conversos and returned to Judaism built this. That’s your potential as well. You have the capacity to contribute to the Jewish community in an incredibly important way.”
On a practical level, Morris says, conversion is required because their ancestry is “clouded.” The Orthodox Bet Din of America, through which he does the conversions, has become familiar with Bnei Anousim. In Israel, Freund says, the rabbinical courts have shown Bnei Anousim “a great deal of sympathy and openness. They view them…as people looking to rejoin the heritage of their ancestors.”
Conversion can be a delicate and emotionally charged process. Bnei Anousim may feel angry that the church stole a treasure from them. They may also feel conflicted about their Jewishness. “As I entered the mikve I found myself scared to confront a new reality, that by converting I was recognizing the fact that I wasn’t a Jew before,” writes Colombian-born Luis Lozano-Paredes, 26, who shared his story on Lovett’s website. Lozana-Paredes converted through the Seminario Rabínico Latinoamericano in Buenos Aires and, afterward, dug into his family’s ancestry. “For some fool reason I wanted to prove my Jewishness apart from a religious process. I wanted to be a Jew by blood. Logic didn’t apply here.” He was able to establish his genetic Jewish connection but then he realized it didn’t matter. “It is not thanks to that ‘bloodline’ that I’m Jewish. I’m Jewish because I wanted to be.…It’s something I felt inside, in my heart, in my brain and in my body.”
In El Paso, Leon has converted about 60 families. Twenty percent of his congregation of 350 is of Converso descent; they are active members and many want to make aliyah. Leon ventures that 15 percent of the Latino population in the Juarez-El Paso area, numbering almost three million, has Jewish roots. Through his initiative, United Synagogue of Conservative Judaism passed a resolution in 2009 that Tisha B’Av—the exact Hebrew date of Spanish expulsion in 1492—be a day of commemoration.
Both Leon and Milgrom believe that the return of Bnei Anousim represents an ingathering of exiles that is a precursor to messianic times. “I know it sounds crazy,” says Leon. “From the time of Abraham until today, God had a mission for our people. The only thing that has not been fulfilled is that we would be as numerous as the sands of the sea and the stars in the sky. We are fewer than we’ve ever been. The answer lies in the Bnei Anousim.”
Milgrom is one of the few who has received a certificate of return (granted to born Jews) from the Israeli rabbinate after her research was verified by Inquisition scholars. She was adamant to prove she had already been Jewish. “I was told I had been made Jewish by conversion so they couldn’t make me more Jewish,” she says.
Milgrom’s children from her first marriage did not convert with her. Her mother understood her conversion as an individual decision; the genealogical journey created a conflict because it involved the entire family’s identity. “You come to this place alone,” says Milgrom, “without your family.”
The isolation increases hundredfold when Bnei Anousim live without access to an organized Jewish community. Nearby rabbis may not accept them. Some learn with rabbis on the Internet or even get involved with Jews for Jesus.
Gustavo Ramirez Calderón, 46, a mechanical engineer from the small town of San Antonio of Desamparados in Costa Rica, traces his family back to Portugal and Spain in 1480. He says members of the Jewish community in the capital city of San Jose are encouraging, but local rabbis of all denominations have repeatedly rebuffed his numerous attempts to request study and conversion over the course of 35 years. “I don’t feel any blame or anger,” he writes in an email. “I understand they may be afraid because we returned after 500 years of being absent.”
When he adopted a Jewish lifestyle, his Catholic neighbors broke his windows and stained his walls with swastikas. But Ramirez Calderón has refused to leave the town one of his ancestors founded in 1595. He studies long distance with Rabbi Benjamin Viñas, founder of the Torat Emet Jewish studies and spirituality center at Lincoln Park Jewish Center in Yonkers, New York.
“I want to walk with my head held high as a free Jew,” he says.
And what of the next generation? Carvajal says her daughter, 17, is “interested and wary. Given our history, I will never force her to choose a religion. Her name is Claire, the French version of Clara, one of my ancestors who was investigated for heresy in Segovia. It means clear and bright. And one day I know she will find her way.”
This article can be found on the Hadassah Magazine website.